New year brings new beginnings and hope for everyone. January is almost over..and I would say it's just beginning for me. Beginning of new challenges, trials, and testing I, we have to face.
I was so happy blogging about my Corbin starting to do tutorials. I'm a proud mom. Corbin is a very sweet boy. I was talking to his teacher last night about the evaluation she has for Corbin for the last 6 days since he started the tutorial. I'm a bit nervous that time I received a message that she needs to talk to me about Corbin. It happened last night, she told me all the observation she has about Corbs. Most are true, some are not. He is quite different when he is with us and with other people.
The teacher notices he doesn't really respond to most of the things around him, and to other kids. He likes to do things on his own, most of the early signs of "mild autism". Although Corbin is so playful and talkative, still I believe there is something wrong with him. His development is different. He loses most of the skills he knows before. The teacher explained everything to me and to keep me informed, I've read articles about mild autism PDD NOS etc. (info about it see my personal blog https://saintlyslair.blogspot.com)
As a mother it breaks my heart to hear such information and to read articles that is directly pin pointing to me that there really is something wrong with him. I tried to be strong but I cried so hard after that. First my husband will be working permanent night shift.. and now it's my son having early signs of mild autism. It's really heart-breaking. Everyone wants their child to grown and live a normal life... we won't always be there for them that is why we want them to grow independently, that is why thinking about it ready made me cry.
Then I prayed, I don't know how to cope up with this.... I can't I told God please remove this burden from me. He said to cast all our burdens to him, I tried. But from time to time I still felt so hurt.
The teacher said there is still hope, some cases of mild autism if diagnose in an early stage and early intervention most of the time the child grows normally and was able to cope up. That is what Im praying for.. God gave his life to us, He can gave him a normal life that is a fact. I just have to keep asking Him continuously without ceasing to help my son, use us, give us wisdom how to take care of Corbin. Although it doesn't come from a developmental pediatrician, still it can be true. We will go back to Philippines and I will make it a point to have him schedule for assessment no matter how much it cost. I want to be there for him and support whatever he needs. I just need God to do the rest for us, the things we cannot do.. finacial and emotional help from the almighty.
1Th 5:17 Pray without ceasing.
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